i have fallen out of love with my site. with just this in general. i only made a neocities account, ages ago on an alt, for a worldbuilding project, but fell in love with the things everyone built. I wanted to build something like that. so i taught myself html and css and for almost a year now ive been in a cycle of making something then hating it, trying to make content and then getting pissed at myself for not being able to. but i think that maybe the reason ive never been satisfied is because i am performing. not doing something authentic. i have had a lot on recently and i thought this was keeping me happy but i think maybe it was just leaving me eternally unsatisfied. i dont even know.
at this point in time, i wont come back. maybe i will at another date, maybe next year or 100 years or in 3 days. and again ive said that before but im just utterly done. thank you to the people who actually interacted with my shithole, even though there was nothing there.
(ps i know this is in a big column but i cant be bothered to fix the stylesheet soo)